Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
So every day
I was surrounded by the beautiful crying forth
of the ideas of God,
one of which was you.
I've not seen lots of the red bird this winter, but I've seen two pairs of blue birds near Deer Creek each of the past three days, the males so brightly feathered.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Warm and sunny today with a full bloom of crocuses and other spring bulbs too tall to deny. Another day of the world without Carl in it, tomorrow will be seven of them. I am fixing broiled flounder, broccoli salad and buttermilk biscuits for supper.
Thursday, February 23, 2012
*for lessons presented over and over to teach me that love is
not cute, not always easy, and always so worthy;
*for all things seen and unseen that carry us breath to breath;
*for the rich, insistent, continuing push of new life, growing.
Monday, February 20, 2012
My sister Sarah knows, now, that she will never babysit again. Therefore, I now have boxes and bags and unwrapped, large pieces of baby supplies-- more books, a high chair, a darling little picnic table, musical instruments, soft, stuffed animals... Our sister Fay brought them Saturday. And yesterday I read some of my poetry to a small Eckhard Tolle study group, an interesting and affirming experience.
Today, as we celebrate Presidents, half the day is gone and I wish to go out under the brilliant blue and walk a while in the fresh-air world.
Thursday, February 16, 2012
I think I'd notice my breath still flowing--, in, out, in, out-- the tide underpinning all else. And then I hope I'd go about the magnificent, ordinary routines that support me, things I've known and loved to do for years. I believe I will always notice the enormous and miniscule natural details of this world, and find it all beautiful. Even the deer carcass in the field on which the eagles feed, even that ripped flesh, skin and sturdy, exposed bone seems to me harshly beautiful, to say nothing of your beloved face, and also mine in the mirror.
From inside, the sky today looks almost uniformly gray, but walking in the outdoors the significant details and variations become noticeable, and the uniformity is only an at-a-glance generalization.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
|How many loved your moments of glad grace,|
|And loved your beauty with love false or true;|
|But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you...|
And what does it mean to find, see, hear, love the pilgrim soul of another? I have an inkling that what I share with my closest friends and sisters is that kind of love. And every individual I've ever met at the soul level has proven to be a pilgrim soul. So I say to you (and you know who you are) I love the pilgrim soul in you.
From a gray morning, skies cleared and sunset is soft and pink in the sky. No burning edge to a gray, hard cloud this evening. Here is the young, agile cat, so supple, always precisely where she aims to be.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
This following was written by Dana Knighten, who tells my story, too.
Last evening as I was walking, there was a moment, just at sunset, when the sky over Good Prospect Farm dimmed down under a diaphanous web of gray, and the breeze quieted, that I felt that troika of Rohr’s: open heart – open mind – receptive body. Just for a moment. And a herd of ten deer, does and yearlings, froze in the fallow field, whiffed the almost-night air, then threw their white flags up to the sky and loped off into the verge. So easy, so light… so physical. I wanted to be one of them. I wanted to feel the rimy earth hard beneath my hooves, to take the hillside in easy strides, to feel my sinews stretch and bunch and my senses all afire.To be like that, like a deer, no filter of consciousness between me and the land I live on. Pure physical presence. And the terrible wonder of the natural world, grace and death, and that awful screech when something – owl, fox, hawk – caught and killed something else just as I arrived, and the thing that gave its life did so not-quietly, screaming its death agony into the metal-tasting air over and over again until all was quiet, and the quiet was more terrible still than the sound. I carried that scream all through my walk, tasted the copper sting of blood on my own tongue even as something in me dissolved into that moment of world presence.
Monday, February 13, 2012
My friend Dana Knighten tells today's story like this: What a glorious bright day it is! Patches of snow, blue-white in the shadows where they are tucked up into the roots of trees. Light shining from the silky green needles of the pines at the top of our neighbor's drive. A pool of meltwater atop the old picnic table on my side deck, shining like beach sand in the intertidal zone after a wave swashes back to the sea. I can hear a bird singing in the treetop outside my office. And oh, glory! the twigs of the maples in the old swamp on Good Prospect Farm are reddening up. Something is afoot, and I call it life.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Saturday, February 11, 2012
It is a deeply human tendency to become dualistic, either-or, black or white, right or wrong. A wider, more layered world view always shows me both-and: both black and white and all the shades of gray. Life, both human and non-, is both so sturdy and so fragile.
Friday, February 10, 2012
Or is my self recognition, as in self love— my awareness of my hunger to be heard, for example— a sort of heart tenderizer to make me a patient, active listener?
Does loving myself make me a better therapist for my own broken heart? Can I come from that gentle, self-accepting place (and largely by intuition and wholly from love) to be better at actively listening to and hearing another?
Even another with whom I, on the surface, may disagree?
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Ah, dear reader, let us learn over and over to be gentle with ourselves and each other, more and more gentle with ourselves and the world.
There's s skim of snow over meadows and fields but not lying on the roads. The large, purple and yellow and white crocuses on the south side of the house are in full bloom. Many of the horses sheltered from the cold wind this morning, basked in early full sun, and now they've all moved out into the meadows under the deep, blue sky, browsing. Another day full of all that never before was quite exactly like this.
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Thursday, February 2, 2012
These are some traditional translations of the Beatitudes, and then new translations from the most ancient known manuscripts by Aramaic Scholar Neil Douglas-Klotz, (Healing Breath):
First Mystery of the Holy Spirit
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven
"Tuned to the Source are those who live by breathing Unity, their ‘I can’ is included in God’s."
Second Mystery of the Holy Spirit
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted
"Blessed are those in emotional turmoil; they shall be united inside by love"
Third Mystery of the Holy Spirit
Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth
"Healthy are those who have softened what is rigid within; they shall receive vigor and strength from the universe."
Fourth Mystery of the Holy Spirit
Blessed are the merciful, for they will receive mercy
"Healthy are those who extend grace; they shall find their own prayers answered."
Fifth Mystery of the Holy Spirit
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God
"Aligned with the One are those whose lives radiate from a core of love; they shall see God everywhere"
Sixth Mystery of the Holy Spirit
Blessed are the Peacemakers; for they shall be called the children of God
"Aligned with the One are those who prepare the ground for all tranquil gatherings; they shall become the fountains of Livingness."
Seventh Mystery of the Holy Spirit
Rejoice, and be exceedingly glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.
"Drink a drop or drench yourself. No matter where you turn you will find the Name inscribed in light: it’s all the One Creation."